breakfast this morning and permit card

ethical dilemma:

Sigh...today I faced another ethical dilemma. For our permit card application, we need to make copies of our passport, visa, stamp with the date of entry and application (4 pages total, but for me, it is three pages, because the official at Amesterdam stamped my date of entry onto my visa....). I went to the front desk of the university where I was staying and asked Pilar, a woman at the front desk where I can make copies (in broken Spanish of course...). She asked me how many pages I need, I told her three. So she said "vale, voy a hacerlo por ti" (she offered to make copies for me). I was really surprised and happy. Since she was still eating breakfast at the time, she told me to come back ten minutes later. So I spent the next several minutes staring at a big map near her station to look for the street where my landlord is living on (I still cannot find that street.....). Then another person from the program asked Pilar the same question, but this time, Pilar directed her to a place outside...I think across the street for making copies. As I saw that person...another young woman my age....walked out of the university...I felt extremely guilty but did not know what to do. Now I think I understand..that Pilar was not supposed to make copies for us...maybe because I asked first, maybe because I was the only Asian-looking person in this university, maybe because my Spanish was obvioulsy not fluent, that Pilar decided to break this rule for me. I thought about following the young woman to the place for making copies...but she was already out of the door. I thought about going to Pilar and told her that it is okay, that she does not have to do it, but I don't really know how to say that in Spanish, I thought about just not returning to her station...but then that means I am breaking a promise....she will spend time wondering why I did not come back...and I don't really know how to explain this dilemma to her, it is really hard to accuse someone of being unethical/unfair when that person is extending the favor to me (ah....as I am writng this sentence ,I realized the severity of my mistake)....so......what I did.....is that I gave the documents to Pilar and while she was making copies, I offered to help her return her plates to the cafeteria downstairs, which she happily accepted. When she was making copies, I realized that the copier she was using was extremely slow...takes about....almost a minute for one page to come out....this makes me feel even more guilty.....sign.......
Anyway....after this dilemma was over, I went to have the documents stamped and sent to the police department. .....ah................

breakfast this morning

Sigh.....the only things I liked were the orange juice and the coffee...everything else: butter cake, puffer cream, bread with cheese and ham were not....really something I like to have for breakfast...faint..................I think I really need to find a Chinese supermarket and get mantou or something......hopefully the new place where I will be staying have microwave...sigh...but today's breakfast is free...so I really should not complain.....................